Wednesday, April 15, 2009 Y 5:25 PM
Today woke up late for sch..reached class at 1.30pm..while on the way to sch..finally i cant control..and cried..those tears were so hard to control..today i saw that person 2 times..first was when i was having break time..at second floor sits there..near my locker..second time was..after class..aira wanna go toilet..we went to the 3rd floor toilet..while coming down from the stairs..we can see inside the guy's toilet..got 2 head..lols..i n aira was like saying abt it..then when we were going to walk to our locker there..aira told mi that..the 2 was..someone n someone's fren == at the bus-stop i was that person..but..hais..we didn even like say hi..i was so wanting to see the person..but jus don know y..when i saw the person..my heart beat very fast..like very scare of sth..but i don know wad..n i was like..shivering =( hais..i control myself to sms the person..so that the person wont be so fan..but why..why i always listen to wad the person say..but not my heart..i was so wanting to sms the person..to see the person..to meet the person..to have lunch with the person..but cant..my mood whole is..very low..don wanna talk much in real life..did even eat too..but hu cares? all i wan now is..jus a simple one..the person to treat mi good..is that so hard? i really don know wad the person is thinking..even i have family prob..i feel like jus ending my life..then don need so stress up..anyway..i really need to write out..or else if i keep everything to myself..one day..when i cant tahan..i think i will jus end my life..
